因為耳神經的關係,上月18號就開始住院打每天2hr血管擴強劑，
一星期都在鼻寒交響曲中奮力睡以及全身發抖然後發"陣"燒,這大概是在醫院最難受的事了，
其他時間都像住酒店一樣,拿著齊物論到處看,在食堂計120元然後呆個晚上。
而在23號,我就在醫院"逃"出來去哲學面試及其後的天文講座，
血氣上湧下胡言亂語的面試,真是糟透了。
醫院的生活限制了我的活動自由,但人本來就沒有絕對的物理性自由，
就算是外面,依然困在國家,居所,街道及生活圈子中。
拿著書本,我精神就自由了 - 這是很浪漫的想法,但所謂"精神自由"是甚麼？
一般認為的精神自由是指不在強迫的情形下自願去思想。
如用鎗要脅你去讀書考試就是明顯精神不自由，
但問題是思想似乎是主動的行為,就算在要脅下你依然有選擇的餘地(可寧死不屈)，
在選擇下人的思想就是主動的,你的精神就是自願去思想。
而在條件上,在要脅下你是用讀書考試去換取不死亡，
在社會中,人是用個人思想去換取利益。
就算是精神貴族的行為(看書看電影聽古典樂等)以至胡思亂想，
思想依然受制於所選擇的材料及所有所見所聞中(就算胡思亂想依然限制其中)
再進一步，人受心理因素如情緒及神經疾病所影響，
如此，人的精神就有了其被動成份。
說到底，精神自由依然糢糊不清。
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Because of the matter of the nerve connecting my right ear, I have to stay in the hospital to insert the hamangioma 2hrs per day began from last month 18th.
The harshest thing of me in that week probably is to strain myself to sleep under the breath symphony ,and shiver whole the body then having a short fever.
The other time I have no different with living in the hotel, in the case that I just reading "齊物論" over the hospital, and count the quota of the provision benefits in the canteen for the whole night.
Then in 23th, I have escape from the hospital on purpose to attain the philosophy department's interview and the following astronomy talk. To attain the interview in the condition of vasodilatation and talk nonsense, I was a mess of shit.
The living of hospital have restrict my freedom of actions, but the fact is that human have no absolute freedom of physic essentially: even the outside, I am still custody in the country, residence, street and my own living cycle.
"with the book, my spirit is free." this is absolutely a romantic notion, but what "freedom of spirit" really means?
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